It just dawned on me today that yesterday February 28th was the day that Brett Tifft walked out of my life 5 years ago. So strange that this didn’t cross my mind until Today. Not once yesterday did it occur to me what day it was. 5 years ago I would have never imagined that “The Day” would ever come and go unnoticed. I never thought 5 years ago God could heal my heart and transform my life. I couldn’t imagine that there could be life without Brett. 5 years ago I didn’t know that Jesus was all I needed. I didn’t know He was enough. But God………….Only God……could do the work He did in my life and in my heart. Only God could help me to forgive what I once thought was the “unforgivable” sin. Only God could take what Satan meant for evil and turn it into something good. I stand amazed that God used the absolute worst circumstance in my life and turned it around to not only grow me into the women He is calling me to be but to glorify Himself. I still can’t believe God used me to encourage women in their marriages during that time and that He still continues to use me in that way.
5 years later……….I am thankful! Thankful He healed my heart. Thankful He uses me in spite of myself. Thankful He took all the broken pieces of my life and made them into something beautiful. Thankful that He is enough.
It’s not the way I would have written this story, but I’m not the author. God is. As much as I would have loved for Brett to come back into my life and our marriage to be reconciled, that is not what happened. I have no doubt God would have loved that scenario too but we all have free will and Brett made his own choice. The awesome thing is though, that regardless of the outcome God can and has used is All for good.
“And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose” Romans 8:28
I am so glad He has called me. I know God doesn’t “need” me but I am so thankful He uses me for His purposes and His plans.
So many times I want my life to look different than it does, than I am reminded of All He has done and continues to do in my life and I am grateful. God knows the desires of my heart and I believe He will give them to me in His timing. So much has changed in the last 5 years. I am not the same women I was. Sometimes I still can’t help but think……….I wish Brett could see me now. Then I think if it wasn’t for Brett coming into my life I wouldn’t have come to know the Lord when I did and if it wasn’t for him leaving my life I wouldn’t have clung to Lord and come to know Him the way I do now. It’s bittersweet really…………….but one thing I do know is……….I’m not the same……….I am changed and I look forward to whatever God has planned for me.
Wise words, my friend; wise words!!
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