Many years ago I was a gifted writer. I’m talking a long, long, time………like back in high school! Yeah I know that was like a hundred years ago. Why didn’t I ever pursue this you may ask? Well, recently I have asked myself the very same thing and I could list a million reasons, none of them good ones, but the fact is, I didn’t and now quite honestly I have regrets. For a long time I never gave it any thought as I was too busy living my life, raising babies, working, and you get the idea. I was going through the motions of life but not living out the life that God had intended for me. Of course during those years it never occurred to me to actually seek God’s will for my life. I was a Sunday Christian and a good person, isn’t that what we are supposed to do? Yes, I know now the answer to that question is no, but it took many years before I would realize that. There are a whole lot of years and a whole lot of testimony from then until now, but that is a story for a later time ,if I actually get the courage to start blogging. I’ve written a million posts in my mind but somehow they never make it to paper. I’ve had a couple dear friends encourage me to step out and just do it. So what is holding me back? Is it insecurity or the fact that I am a perfectionist or that I haven’t written in so long I don’t know if I can do it anymore? Probably, because you see, I am a big blog stalker and there are so many amazing blogs out there. I haven’t used my gift in so long that I can’t possibly still be able to write, can I? How in the world could I compare with that? And then it occurred to me, I don’t have to compare myself to anyone else. God created me uniquely for a reason. He wants me to be different and He gave me the talents and gifts that He wants me to use to fulfill His purpose for my life. He’s not concerned about proper sentence structure and punctuation. Lately I have been really doing some soul searching and trying to truly seek God’s will. Am I using all my talents, gifts, and resources He has entrusted to me? Hmmm, I think the answer is no Yes, I am serving; I am stepping out in many areas that I never imagined, and yes I am pursuing Him more in the past couple of years than ever in my life, but is there more I could/should be doing? I’m going to say yes there is. Is one of the things to start a blog……..maybe. This may be an act of obedience or stepping stone to something else, who knows. It’s possible no one will ever even read it and that’s ok too. Maybe it will just be a way to record what I am learning as a fumble my way through life. Maybe I will write something that actually speaks into someone’s life and lets them know they are not alone. Maybe l will provide comfort for someone who is hurting. Maybe I might bring a smile to someone’s face or give them hope when they feel that they can’t make it through another day. Maybe, just maybe……who knows………..
Who knows, God knows and as long as He knows that’s good enough for me.
Time to Step out………………
You go girl! :)
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