Wow. I can’t really believe it’s been more than 3 months since I posted anything….fail. I had really good intentions when I went back to work that I would still have plenty of time to blog and do everything else I need to do. I don’t know if I haven’t had the time or haven’t made the time. I think maybe the latter might be the case. My intentions are always good but my follow through, well that needs work. At least I’m honest.
Obviously so much has happened these last months that I could write a book, so instead I will pick my latest challenge and focus on that for today. This is not a new struggle for me but a reoccurring one…………….running ahead of God. So, here we go around that mountain yet again. I don’t know why that the moment I see God working I automatically want to run ahead. Instead of simply praising Him for what He is doing in that moment and wait for Him to show me the next step I immediately want to anticipate what’s going to happen next. Instead of surrendering to Him and continuing to walk in daily obedience the former control freak inside pops out and says “thanks God, I’ll take it from here”. Then you know what happens? Things never turn out the way I planned or expected. Go figure, huh. I don’t know why I become impatient when waiting for God to show me the next step. I know His plans are better than mine. I know He is faithful to all He has promised. I have watched Him answer prayer in my life many times.
He recently reminded me of this again as I was reading in Habakkuk:
The vision is yet for the appointed time…though it tarries, wait for it; for it will certainly come, it will not delay. (Habakkuk 2:3)
God always fulfills His promises, in His time, not mine. So even though I know this to be true why do I continue to struggle? Too often I get caught up in trying to figure it out myself instead of trusting the One who is in control.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
I’ve wasted a lot of time this week dwelling on things beyond my control. Then God gently reminded me “Be still and know that I am God”. I know God has a great plan for my life. He has already done so much more than I could have imagined. Lord, forgive me for losing my focus and running ahead. Help me to enjoy all you are blessing me with right now and to savor the moment without worrying about what the future holds. Help me take every thought captive and make it obedient to you as I strive to walk in your perfect will for my life.